Have you ever noticed that the second you become interested in someone, it's as though the stars align and every single ex-boyfriend you've ever had in the world decides it's time to check in? What's that about? The past month feels like it's been an ex attack from all sides and it's just going to get worse, as Neverending Boyfriend (you know, the one I've purposely not spoken to in a year and a half) is going to be at the memorial service I'm attending for our mutual friend. Fail.
Granted, he's in a relationship now and I'm not worried in the slightest that anything is going to happen with us; I just prefer not to see him. Ever. If he just stopped existing, that would be great. I battle his voice enough in my head - seeing him the flesh isn't going to help anything.
Are these tests for me? Am I failing by still talking to them? Should I ignore people, move on, and never acknowledge them again? What's the best way to handle it?
Obviously, I don't know the answer to that. I just wish I could deactivate whatever magnet is drawing them to me. Scram.
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