
So, you know I don't like to drone on and on about AFMF (
well, anymore, that is), but sometimes it's hard for me not to dwell on how well things were going last year. Especially right now. Especially this month - because at this point last year, AFMF and I were the strongest we'd ever been. I love you's were exchanged, we were talking about trying to have a baby, and the dreaded boyfriend/girlfriend talk had been had. We didn't just see each other once in awhile, we were seeing each other at least three times a day by the end (
once in the morning when I left for work, once during the workday, and then after work). And then one day, as quickly as it all started, it was over. Yes, I'm a lot more emotionally grounded now and I can even get through an entire day (
or even months) without crying over him, but it's been a struggle. I still miss him. I still wonder how he's doing and wish him well. I'm not sure when/if that will ever go away. Maybe it doesn't have to. As time goes by and I'm left with the happy memories (
and not as much of the bad), I can look back and see what was learned and why he was in my life to begin with. I did learn a lot and I'm grateful for that. I'll be better prepared the next time I'm in a relationship and I owe a lot of that to AFMF. But one year ago.....sigh....
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