Sometimes it's Hard to be Positive

I know this will shock you, but I'm finding it incredibly hard to be positive lately. About anything. About everything. Especially about myself. The negative self-talk in my head is probably worse than anything anyone could ever say to me. I don't know why I'm like this. I thought about putting up signs around my house of all the mean things what's-his-name said to me in order to keep me pissed off at him all the time, but guess what? I'm mean enough to myself. I don't need his words and my words combined. Sad. I wish I could be kinder. I'm reading a book about it right now. Hopefully it'll help someday.