Positive Energy

Sometimes I think I'm too negative of a person who always looks on the dark side. However, at other times, especially when someone is all doom-and-gloom, I become Miss Positive USA who's annoyingly perky. Deep down inside, I think I'm just naturally negative. I remember back in 7th grade when a boy asked me "to go" with him and we embarked upon an exciting (I use this term loosely) three-week relationship which involved a Christmas present exchange of some perfume (for me) and a sweater (for him) and maybe a hug (obviously, I don't remember much about this huge love affair). I'm not even sure we held hands. The point of this story is as soon as he asked me "to go," my first thought was, "I wonder how long it takes us to break up?" Is that normal? Shouldn't I just have been like, "Whoo hoo! A boy asked me to go!" From that point on, instead of just enjoying what I have, I'm always wondering when it will fail. I don't know how to change that. I don't want to be a negative person, nor do I want to draw negative feelings towards me. I want to be positive and have happy, wonderful things happen to me. Perhaps I should read "The Secret" again. Yeah, that's a good start, right? :)