I need to break-up with him. Yes, I know, we're not "technically" going out, but no matter. This is too much. I can't do this anymore. Not only did I go to bed crying, but I woke up crying, as well. What good is that? Who needs this crap? I forget what "strong Pinky" looks like. All that's left is this weak, mush of a person who cries all the time and feels bad about everything. I need to get my power back. How do I do that? And why is it that I'm sitting here trying to remember other break-ups I've lived through (even though I'm sure at the time I was convinced I wouldn't), but I can't remember any. Where did those bad memories go? I need some examples of being strong or maybe just some encouragement on what to do. I hate this! Help.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
It's Too Much
I need to break-up with him. Yes, I know, we're not "technically" going out, but no matter. This is too much. I can't do this anymore. Not only did I go to bed crying, but I woke up crying, as well. What good is that? Who needs this crap? I forget what "strong Pinky" looks like. All that's left is this weak, mush of a person who cries all the time and feels bad about everything. I need to get my power back. How do I do that? And why is it that I'm sitting here trying to remember other break-ups I've lived through (even though I'm sure at the time I was convinced I wouldn't), but I can't remember any. Where did those bad memories go? I need some examples of being strong or maybe just some encouragement on what to do. I hate this! Help.
i like to pull out a little of my inner stuart smalley. i remind myself that i'm bigger and better than any moment in time and certainly than any dumb guy. i hate being a victim and when i find myself being depressed it makes me feel like a victim so i rely A LOT on my agency - i remind myself i can CHOOSE how i react to any situation. it's tough but it's all i've found that works for me.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry sweetie. Boys suck. LEts go play soon.
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